I am not lunatic. Well, maybe sometimes or most of the time but today, Im pertaining to that weirdo who sent me a private message at ym. First, he was nice. Then, after a few minutes of entertaining him he started to get weirder and weirder. He’s like, "I know you mary, I know everything about you. So you like writing poems, I know your secret mary."

Hey, ok, I cut him out. What the * is he talking about? He contiued, "You bribe a friend(huh??!). See I know your secret. And if you would not do as I say. I will send an email to all your friends and tell them what you did."

Is he insane? I told him I dont know what he’s talking about and if thats what he wants (sending my friends an email) then do so, I dont really care coz I know I didnt do wrong anything to anybody that I didnt fix.

Im ignoring him, then he starts to ask how much do I need, is there a western union nearby.. blah.. Oh yeah, I got him now. First he’s threatening me and since it doesnt affect me in any way, he now changed his tactics by buying me. Poor guy.

Im priceless and I dont think anybody can buy me or has the right to buy me. Making up stories is no good. I hate it when people do that, but yeah reality bites, people do that as a hobby.

And as for that chat thing", We know for a fact that there’s something going on in the chat room, we’ve seen it on tv, read it on newspapers and magazines, heard it on the radio, it’s basically everywhere and despite of the fact that Im aware of what’s happening. Im still shocked when I am offered $30,000 for a show by a perverted American pig.

Tough life, I told myself "Walang magbabayad kung walang nagpapabayad." right?

Since then, I dont even try joining any room because of those people. What are they doing in Filipino rooms anyway? And most of the filipino chatters nowadays sadly,  are becoming one of them. Pervert and maniacs.  There are only few who has sense to talk with and they are the ones who remain in my list and I’m talking to until now.

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Marya,(my pseudonym) has always love multi tasking. Thinking she can handle everthing all at the same time, she isnt bothered knowing she have to maintain 5 more blogs(not including this)

She has a lot of plans but has trouble in executing them(thats why she’s handing the planning to God so she can focus more on doing them)

She reads, sings, play, day dream, draw, clean the house, cook, sleep (if she could) a lot.

She hates math coz it makes her head ache. Loves coffee, mongo stuffed bread, hopias, pasta & pizza. You can buy her off with a c2lemon or nestea iced tea, a siopao and she’ll be your slave for a minute.

Marya, is pretty much contented and happy with her life, savoring each moment being single and waiting for that special someone. A hopeless romantic in the true sense of the word although she doesnt want to admit it..

Always been tough, self-reliant and independent. God fearing and willing to risk anything and change for the better.

"You know the irony of life is that you have this big dream to get where you want to be.But once you get there you start to dream, you think about where you came from. I guess thats part of the circle of our lives"-BIG FISH

If anyone would ask me, what inspires me to go on in this journey. I’ll say to them, Its the journey itself. The thrill of not knowing what goes beyond every door you open, the joy of meeting great people along the road and the fact that after a long way of travelling on this journey, there is really a finish line and thats what Im looking up to.-Marya

I always love expressing myself through writing, I can say that I can express myself better with it than verbal communication. Im not the tolerator type, but when it comes to talking and conversing with other people about some important stuff, Id rather shut my mouth and let you do all the talking then I’ll write it all down for you to read.

I’ve been blessed with a lot of good friends although most of the time I like being alone and do all the malling, movie marathon etc alone. I love to be sorrounded by friends, that could not always mean literally but just the thought that they are just there for you, praying especially when Im in a certain situation, they are my strength and I really praise and thank God fr giving them to me.

I met a lot of good friends in blog world too, so much that I cant get enough of their entry and wait for another one to be written. People blog not only for the reasons they are bored or they just want to kill time. But they blog to express themselves. Their love, hate, anger, crisis, thoughts that’ll make you laugh and will left you thinking afterwards.

From the comedic-serious types, educational-spiritual, cooking-eating. What’s hot and not, you can find it here, everything under the sun. And I feel so blessed that finally I get to remember my password to each blog I have and finally maintain it once in awhile if not everyday.

Merry Christmas to all! 

Nang maubos ang salita
ni Mary Edeza de Leon

Isang gabing katatapos lang ng pagtatalo

Nakatalikod akong tumabi sayo

Walang gustong umamin kung sino

ang may sala at kanino…

Hanggang sa maubos ang pasensya ko.

Walang gustong humingi ng tawad

at bumaba sa trono

Patuloy ang ating pagmamatigas

at pagsasawalang kibo

Buntong-hininga ang sa paligid ay bumabalot

at nakikipagpalitan sa katahimikan pag laon

Humarap ako at sinalubong ang mga mata mo
nangalumbaba at nag muestra na tatayo.

para lang pigilan ng malamig na kamay mo
Nilingon kita at akmang magtatanong

Ngunit mas pinili kong ang labi’y itikom

Wala na ang tinging nanghahamon

Nang maubos ang salita,

galit na puso’y naging mahinahon.

Ilang ilan pa?
Mary Edeza de Leon

Ilang beses ko ng sinubukan
na humabi ng tulang para sa nagiibigan
ngunit ilang beses na din akong binigo
ng inspirasyong ayaw akong pagbigyan.

Ilang ulit ko ng pinagpipilitan
na gumawa ng tula para sating munting pinagsaluhan
ngunit pagkatapos ng isa, dalawang talata
may maaalala, matutulala pagkatapos ay matitigilan.

Ilang oras na ang aking nasayang
para lamang makabuo ng isang masayang tula
ngunit patuloy akong naghihintay sa wala
may bukas pa, yun na lang siguro ang aking aasahan

Ilang panahon pa kaya ang gugugulin?
sa paghihintay na merong darating
upang dito sa kalungkutan ako’y hahanguin
at muli’y maranasang ako ay mahalin


Paano na ang lab song ko?


Mary Edeza de Leon

Walang iniibig, walang nagpapakilig
Nais kong sumulat ngunit walang maalala.
Di ko maalala ang pakiramdam ng may umiibig.
Paano na ang lab song ko?

May tono, may salita, di naman totoo
Gusto kong gumawa ng awitin para sayo
Ngunit di ko na maalala ang pakiramdam sa piling mo
Paano na ang lab song ko?

Sinarado, binuksan ang kaha ng gitara
Nais kong handugan ka ng isang kanta
Ngunit nasaan na nga ba ang mga alaala?
Paano na ang lab song ko?

Tumipa, tumigil hanggang sa napatulala na lang
Gusto kong kahit isa ay magawan ka
Ngunit nasaan na nga ba ang mga nota?
Paano na ang lab song ko?

Paano na ang lab song ko?
Di na lang ako gagawa siguro
Hanggang sa bumalik kat punuin ang kahungkagan nito
Saka na lang ako gagawa ng lab song
Saka na, kapag nandito ka na sa piling ko

Dont

Dont promise
-for it is meant to be broken
Dont beg
-for it can only make you look defeated
Dont come near
-if you’ll leave soon
Dont hold me
-if you’ll leave me cold
Dont look at me
-if you cant stand me
Dont say something
-if you dont mean it
Dont try to open me
-if you only bare the fake side of you
Dont scare me
-that could never win me
Dont cry over me
-that could only make me feel dead
Dont try to find me
-it will only make me avoid you more
Dont love me
-if you’ll get tired of me later

Just dont.

Silence.

I love you silence

You’re my lover, my friend

You’re everything I could ever needed

Be with me, stay with me ’till the end

I love you silence

Can’t you extend more time for me?

I want to be with you forever, is it free?

Speak to me, stay with me ’till I see

I love you silence

You give life to my lifeless nights

You devoured me with your love

take me, don’t ever let me go

Silence, I love you.

Saving whats left
A few more days and the so-called All Soul’s day will come. I have nothing against the people lighting candles, praying for their loved ones who pass away but I was just wondering why do they have to wait for November 1 to visit their graves if they really do care for them? The point here is that we should not mourn for the dead for so long but instead, save what’s left, save what you have right now, value the people living and don’t wait until they get into their graves just to be visited. Text or call them, tell them how much you love them and that you care for them.
All Soul’s day is not just a holiday to remember the dead but it could also be a day for us to be reminded that we should love more, live life to it’s fullest, because tommorrow is uncertain, we never know what will come, and might as well be ready for it right? Time is a treasure and it should be well invested.
We can’t live for the dead forever that’s why we have life. God gave us this life to have fun while telling others how much God loves them. And if you don’t know it yet. You know it now, God loves you. He cares for you even more than your dead husband/wife, boyfriend/girlfriend, parents, siblings, friends, pet does. God wants you to value life, because He entrusted you with it. Start living:)

The yearning of a 10-year-old girl

I always want to tell you how lovely you are
Especially when you let your hair down
I always wanted to hug you and tell you how much I care
But you never allow me to do that.

You always turn your back on me
And blame me for everything
You told me I’m your bad luck
And you regretted that I was born

When everything’s messed up with you and your lover
You blame it to me and I don’t know why
When something’s wrong, you’ll tell me it’s my fault
I don’t know what I’ve done to make you mad like that.

You curse me everyday
And hit me where the broom landed
You said you would kill me
If I don’t get out of your face

But in spite of all that mommy
I love you still
And even if you push me away everyday
I’ll choose you still.